Tuesday, February 7, 2012

tidal wave


We are in a "tidal wave" zone :(

Our little girl's GRIEF is overwhelming!

She is not able to give words to her "anger"
but her pain is apparent and so heartbreaking!

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We have not shared our daughter's story in completion, because it's just that, hers.

But she has experienced more loss & pain than most adults can even fathom.

Until now, she's maneuvered through such heart wrenching loss & hurt on her own.

She's a fighter.

Broken.

un-trusting.

T. has very high & strong walls built up.

She resists excepting any help; pushes away all offered comfort, sympathy, compassion & love!

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As a momma who wants desperately to soothe her hurts, my heart breaks from my inability to
love her pain away.

I can't make it better!

 But I trust in the Great Physician ... He can give healing and I pray for this miracle for our daughter's precious heart & life often.
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I have to admit though, when T's emotions swell up like a tidal wave and her "anger" seems beyond BIG, it's hard not to get knocked over & succumbed by it all.

I find myself responding to the anger & hurtfulness and not the GRIEF I know to be flooding our broken little girl.

 I so desire to be used to be an example of God's unfailing love & care for each of our children. I pray for eyes to see what really is and not the emotional mask hiding the fears.

So today, as we doggie-paddle through the storm, I'm reaching for the one who walks on water & holds our day & lives in the palm of His hand.



"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me."
John 14:1

In prayer,
~Becky

2 comments:

The dB family said...

Thinking of you and lifting you up in prayer. Love that verse you're hanging on to today!

Blessings!
Deborah

Michlyn said...

You're an amazing mom! I can see how God has been healing her broken heart, and as he picks up piece by piece I know she's learning.

We love her, more than she knows but that grief, anxiety, spunk, trauma, and loss gets her pushed in the wave.

luckyduck,
~Michlyn