Tuesday, February 7, 2012

tidal wave

We are in a "tidal wave" zone :(

Our little girl's GRIEF is overwhelming!

She is not able to give words to her "anger"
but her pain is apparent and so heartbreaking!


We have not shared our daughter's story in completion, because it's just that, hers.

But she has experienced more loss & pain than most adults can even fathom.

Until now, she's maneuvered through such heart wrenching loss & hurt on her own.

She's a fighter.



T. has very high & strong walls built up.

She resists excepting any help; pushes away all offered comfort, sympathy, compassion & love!


As a momma who wants desperately to soothe her hurts, my heart breaks from my inability to
love her pain away.

I can't make it better!

 But I trust in the Great Physician ... He can give healing and I pray for this miracle for our daughter's precious heart & life often.

I have to admit though, when T's emotions swell up like a tidal wave and her "anger" seems beyond BIG, it's hard not to get knocked over & succumbed by it all.

I find myself responding to the anger & hurtfulness and not the GRIEF I know to be flooding our broken little girl.

 I so desire to be used to be an example of God's unfailing love & care for each of our children. I pray for eyes to see what really is and not the emotional mask hiding the fears.

So today, as we doggie-paddle through the storm, I'm reaching for the one who walks on water & holds our day & lives in the palm of His hand.

"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me."
John 14:1

In prayer,


The dB family said...

Thinking of you and lifting you up in prayer. Love that verse you're hanging on to today!


Michlyn said...

You're an amazing mom! I can see how God has been healing her broken heart, and as he picks up piece by piece I know she's learning.

We love her, more than she knows but that grief, anxiety, spunk, trauma, and loss gets her pushed in the wave.